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Today still in free day,no collage,no study ^^ waw
But i still feel it was a waste if i dont do something useful in this free days

World will always spinning around,no matter what u feel,no matter what u do,sometimes i think it’s scary,coz both bad n happy things just gone away n come again while our hearts still in fragile state,yet we keep must going on,so we really need source of strength.Have u found the source of the strength? For me,there’s only one n will always only one : Jesus Christ

For today poem :

Wings fallen down to the earth
Brought my days together with them
My days introduced themselves to me
So i could able to face them

1st one called Happiness
It will give me warm feelings
So that i will keep smiling to others
No matter what happen in my life

2nd one called Sorrow
It will give me sad feelings
So that i will know that others feels the same things with me
And i could share together with them

3rd one called Emptiness
it will give me empty feelings
So that i will try to fill it with things that could able to remove the emptiness
And i could tell others how to remove the emptiness

4th one called Fear
It will give me scare n despair
So that i will understand how my life so short
And i could live my life at the best i can and live together with others

Yet so many other days again introduced themselves
I couldn’t tell anymore
Coz if i tell,it wouldn’t be excited again to face these days
Just live up as much as u can
And just know,these days not bad as u think
Coz they always hoped the best for u
Even u don’t understand at all

By : Myself  ^^

Huwee,today i got my final exam result,fiuh I’m glad that my UAP SBD got 76,so that my final grade maybe got C T_T,but thank God at last my effort to study was not useless

For today,i learn something
When we feel sad,we used to think negative/bad things,yet when we feel happy,we used to think positive/good things.Do u realize such simple things?Are human always thinking like that?Why human thinking like that even no one tell them to be like that?Why not when feel happy,think about bad things?Or when feel sad,think about good things?Isn’t it strange?

I think that’s something unique,connection between ur heart n ur mind.When ur heart in bad shape,it can also influence the way u thinking

For today poem
Enjoy it ^^ :

I thought i was right
Doing everything that others did too
But i forgot important thing
Others did not always do everything right

My life just like copied action from others
They smile,i smile
They cried,i cried
They think,i think

I realized
That I am is myself,not him,not her,not it
I already unique without copying others
Coz there are only one me,no others like me

So coz of that
I won’t be the same me again
Not always based on what others do
But based on what should i do

Such small things
Yet can decide my future
For new today till other days
Let’s be myself

Yo,for today i write this blog,just to share my thought again ^^
A few days ago,I watched "1 Litre of Tears" Japanese movie,based on TRUE STORY OF GIRL NAMED IKEUCHI AYA,it was such touching movie,about a girl that strunggiling for 10 years against her rare sickness called Cerebeleum Degeneration Disease (if i not wrong >.<) disease that made her slowly lost her body movement,even to eat.

When watched it,i can’t hold my tears T_T too sad.In the end,she died at 25 years old,without ever married (such a young n wonderful age).But her struggle become power for others that had the same disease like her.And her diary from the first time she got the disease until the day she almost died,being sold n become popular.When she wrote her diary,she really need to use all her strength just only to move her hands (can u imagine it that u need all strength just to writing? )

She is really strong girl.And i think she is happy one,coz she have really caring family n friends around her.Not all people will care or even pity others.And i only understand this is called humanity,something that only human being had it.
Want to see the movie?Just search it hehe.I rated it 10 from 10 (perfect ^^)
And don’t forget prepare tissue when u watch,even from 1st episode >.<

If i were in that girl position,would i be that strong?and would my friends n family will care bout me?That’s scariest thing to think if they don’t care at all T_T.


Reminds me how short our life was,yet we waste it carelessly without thinking wisely.
So let us treasure our life,coz it’s only once,n we can’t back to the past anymore

And i write some poem for u to read ^^
Enjoy this :

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